Larawan ng Aking Lipunan (Pag-igkas sa bisa ng panitikan)

Usisera, sige tawagin na ako sa gayong taguri. Sadyang nakapagpapabagabag nga lamang na tunay nang sa araw-araw ay iyong madinig ang samu't saring ulat ng mga pagpaslang sa mga di umano'y tulak o kaya'y lulong sa ipinagbabawal na gamot. Ngunit mas nakababahalang iyong masaksihan ang isang katatapos lang na operasyon sa iyong daraanan habang pinagkukumpulan ng di mabilang na mukha ang labi ng isang lalaking nakahandusay habang duguan at wala nang malay. (Di na siguro nararapat pang retratuhan)

Bagamat di maikaiilang sadyang nakaririmarim na malaman ang ilang krimen na bunga ng kawalan ng huwisyo dahil sa droga di rin natin maiwawaglit na maaaring ilan sa mga kinikitlan ng hininga ay pawang walang sala, napagkalaman,  o dili naman kaya'y isa na sa mga nagpipilit na magbagong buhay sa pag nanais na sumunod sa patakarang pangkasalukyan.

Di iilang libo lamang ang nagsisuplong na ng kanilang mga sari-sarili halos buong pamilya sa iilan at kung susumahin ay buong barangay na ngang yata. Ngunit araw-araw din mababalita ang sunud-sunod na pagpaslang sa mga diumano'y sangkot sa droga. Ang ilan napababalitang nababaril sa mga operasyon o raid. Kapag nakakausap na ang mga saksi: mga kamag-anakan o kapitbahay, daglian ang pagsasabi nilang sumuko naman na ang biktimang suspek (tila kakaiba, ano po?),  di naman sila nanlaban, nagmakaawang wag paslangin, natutulog lang, itinuring na mga hayop, at samut-saring bagay na minsan mapag-iisip kang tama pa ba ang mga kaganapan?

Sa iba kapag nagsalita ka ng ganito mapaghahalintulad ka sa walang alam o di kaya'y laban ka sa pamahalaan. Pero imulat natin ang ating isipan ... may pitumpu't pitong libong pamaraang maiisip ang matatalino nating taumbayan, --mas makapangkayarihan kaninuman.

Anong ipinag-iba ng katarungang isinisigaw kung pati na ang pamamaraan ay kawangis lamang din naman ng nilalabanan? Hustisya ang hinihingi habang hustisya ay pinapatay. Anong kabuluhan? Maraming paraan... tatandaan kung disiplina ang nais mong ibigay sa iyong sumail na anak... sikapin mong paglaanan sya ng disiplinang may kalakip na pagmamahal nang tumimo sa isip nya ang kabuhulan ng ginagawa mo ay para din sa kanyang ikabubuti. Di nga ba, Inang bayan?

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Nabulahaw

Ayoko sanang makialam. Ngunit nabulahaw ako't nagisingan ng aking mauliningan ang pagtatalo sa labas ng aming tahanan.

Bulyaw, hiyaw, at tumataginting na mga mura. Paulit-ulit, masakit sa tainga. Buuuuug, tunog ng pintong isinalya ng isa sa kanila. Blaaaaaaag, tila may inihagis na kung ano mang babasaging bote o baso... di ko malaman.

Di ako pamilyar sa mga tinig ngunit batid kong mula sa kanilang malakas na sigawan ang pagtatalo ng isang pares ng batang mag-asawa tungkol sa di nila pagkakaunawaan. Bakas sa kani-kanilang mga sinasabi ang pagkamusmos at di pa hulmang kaisipan sa buhay na kanilang sinuong.

Sumbat, paninisi, pananakot, at panghihiya. Inilulugmok ang isa't isa sa pandinig ng mga kalapit bahay. Sigaw,  palahaw,  at nakapanginginig na mga salita mga mula sa matatalas nilang dila. Nakalulungkot lamang na nauulinigan ng kanilang supling na may isang taong gulang ang digmaang ito. Hindi mo masisisi ang mga piping saksi na naaawa at nabulabog ng di maubos-ubos na pagtatalo nila sa gitna ng tahimik na gabi. Kung susumahin sila ay nasa 20 taong gulang pababa (opo mga bata pang tiyak.)

Kung tutuusin, wala namang masama sa pag-aasawa ng bata pa maging handa ka lamang sa responsibilidad nitong kaakibat. Dahil hindi ito taguan na pagka ikaw ay nahuli ay susuko na lang o bahay-bahayan na pagka di mo na gusto ay ayawan na.

Noong ako ay paslit pa, ni minsan ay di ko naulinigan ang pagtatalo nina ama at ina. Tila sinisigurado nilang ang pagtatalo ay sa pagitan lamang nila. Hindi ko alam kung sadyang tahimik lang si ama o madiskarte't malihim lamang si ina. Nang nasa wasto na akong isip ay ipinababatid na rin naman nila ang di nila pagkakaintindihan ngunit di ko sila nakitaan ng dahas sa isa't isa kailan man. Alam kong di perpekto ang kanilang pagsasama ngunit sa kanilang pamamaraan namulat akong may paggalang sa sinumang nakakasama at makakasama sa buhay. Respeto ika nga. Ito ay udyok ng pag-ibig na kung saan magagawa mong idaan sa usapan nang maunawaan mo ang sigalot sa pagitan ninyong magkabiyak.

Nakalulungkot. Hindi ko makitaan ng ganitong pamamaraan ang iilang mga nagsasamang kabataan ngayon. Masakit isipin na hindi pa sila lubhang handa sa mga ganap at magaganap. Masasabi kong kasibulan pa lamang din nga kasi ng kanilang buhay ngunit ang masaklap may kalong ng sanggol. Mabuti nga ang ilan ay matapang itong iniluluwal at itinataguyod. Ngunit minsan ang mga musmos na ito pag tila di na kayang itaguyod ay siyang sumasalo ng ilang mga "frustrations" ng kani-kanilang magulang. Sana'y hindi mangyaring mabalingan ang mga bata at nawa at matutuhan nilang dahan-dahang yakapin ang buhay na kanilang pinasok.

Alam kong wala akong karapatang magpayo o magsalita ukol sa buhay may asawa dahil wala pa naman ako noon. Pero siguro naman may karapatan akong matulog nang maayos ng di iniisip yung kaawa-awang batang umiiyak at kung buhay pa kaya bukas yung nag-aaway. Pinilit kong lamukusin ang aking mukha. Magpabiling-baling ng higa. Nariyang ihambalang ang aking mga unan sa tainga at mukha na halos ibalot ko pa ng aking kumot para lamang makatulog dahil baka sa malamang ma-late na naman ako nito bukas.

Tag line

"Is your straight man gay enough to be a man?"

I smiled after skillfully reading this tag line written on the shirt of a young man with tattoos and a long hair holding his little daughter's hand and the suitcase on the other as they throd their way to school. I assume, the dad will accompany the little girl for schooling. It is evident that the dad and the daughter is used to this event. -a routine probably. They seems to be dearly talking to each other. I really find it cute.

Was that young dad made that personalised shirt for himself? Haha or a gift from the wife. Well, none of my business. It's beyond my power to jump off the ride I am in now and dare to get the answer from him. (Kaya minsan gusto kong maging mind-reader or an oracle maybe eh)

The thing I can deal on as an aftereffect is the thought of delving deeper onto the tag line.

When a he becomes a she for an outcome of a personal choice or a decision he has to take.

Let me go ahead and address the latter one on this pre-hand part, maiba lang lagi nalang kasi yung una yung idine-describe eh.

A result of a decision that one has to play. It would probably be for a househusband when a man has to take the duty to be the mum under whatever circumstance: a single dad, a husband with a working wife, or a man who has an ample time to do the duties of a mum...and so on. These guys would dare to beat the eggs & have it poached, fry hotdogs, toast a loaf, and brew a coffee on a chilly morning, would be sure of attending to the kids before heading to work, would endure to clean up the kitchen, tuck the bed, swept the floor, go to the market, do the laundry on a hot afternoon every weekends,  and would mind to cook for dinner, fix the table, and tag the lights off on a consoling night.

Aren't they like rare Pokémon to catch?
True, as it is not every day you'll see that kind of dads who will be standing side by side with his son or daughter giving a kid a break-a-leg kiss as a school program will start,  a dad waiting in line for an hour to fetch his child, and a dad delivering a 'baon' (Nakakamiss makakita ng ganito in a school premise) Salute to these guys!

Ini-huli ko talaga yung una kasi medyo sensitive. Cos I will be taking off the word 'straight' and this will leave you with: "Is your man gay enough to be a man?" (Sana di ako mabato ng kamatis)

From an article entitled "Ang Ipis na Feeling Butterfly" (folio, 2015) I read, the word gay colloquially coined as 'bakla' is referring to a person who is 'takot' or 'duwag'. But technically on my lit-understanding gay highly means happy. When a he became a she as per option of freeing oneself and embrace their happiness it is indeed being gay and being happy.

Gays can be equated to joy as well. They can make you laugh even they themselves aren't happy. They can care more than they care about themselves. And some times being abuse because they give more than what they have.

But unlike rare Pokémon, they are every where: TV shows, movies, commercials, fx, trains, mall, food chain, kahit anong propesyon, at minsan katabi mo (wag mo nang tingnan mahahalata tayo...mapaaway ka pa) They can make people smile and some times giggle (kung mala-Chris Evans and John Lloyd lang naman ano ka pa? Eh di nganga). They promote positive outlook towards life by unfettering oneself.

How did I say that gays became men they can ever be? There are some gays who chose to build a family with a woman and have their own kids, living to be who they are but aren't neglecting the duties to be dads. There are some gay couples who adopt children, functioning to be what they wanted and loved eventually sharing the love of being a whole family. And some gays, performing as the soul for their biological families. Pushing their best to be worth every single events that unfolds to serve as bread winners for their tatay, nanay, kapatid,  pamangkin, kapid-bahay, at even just a kakilala. These people wouldn't falter giving out themselves selflessly. So hayaan nalang natin ang pagsasaboy nila ng ganda sa sanlibutan, ang kumontra at dedma sa pansitan. True! --bawal and nega. Salute to these gays!

Boiling down to the specific, a man is man enough until they live gay enough to stand on things that they ought to without limiting what one can do. Live to be limitless. Live free.



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Drafted Names

It took time for me to scribe these lovely names.--I hope they won't let me down.

A week before today I started to think and to scribe the names of a few people close to my heart for a dream I wish to fulfill few months from now.

The list is composed of ...
-A strong-determined lady from Bulacan
-A good pair of loving mother & child
-A work oriented SME and the Team Lead Boyfriend
-A love-birds from UK and WF
-A super-duper beautiful breadwinner sweetheart
-A kindhearted brilliant son (from my 2010-11 class)
-A good free spirited kick out lad (from my 2013-14 class)
-A literary sweetheart from good ol'days
-A Padre Pio devotee 'girl'friend
-A baby-for-keeps (from my 2010-11 class)
-A fit-spirit loving mom for her Heaven
-A sweet lovely daughter (from my 2010-11 class)
-A silent smart girl with dimples (from my 2010-11 class)
-A caring sweetie (from my 2013-14 class
-A guitar sweetie (from my 2013-14 class)
-A simple intelligent stude (from my 2011-12 class)
-A beautiful-gourgeous-pretty anak (from my 2011-12 class)
-A boyish family-support sweetie
-A super teacher mom of 3 lovely kiddos
-A sexylicous teacher mom of 2 princesses
-An Artistahin-by-name wanderer
-A duty bound super-teacher
-A faithful youngster-servant
-A loving mom of 2 from Cavite
-A great florist-dancer
-An out-going but detailed man from Ilocos
-An enthusiastic frater
-A priest-to-be

I have chosen them because I know they love me (assumera ako) and they won't think twice in saying YES to me. But of course, I shouldn't feel bad if one of them would decline or ignore my 'request'. It isn't their obligation anyway.

It isn't bad to dream of a dream and make it real. I know how blessed I am with people who are blessed as I am. I know how to be cherished and to be totally loved...this time, I wish to share it by words and by action.

If in case, these people wouldn't respond I promise to still fulfill my promise (to myself) to share my blessings to the community I will be visiting on December.

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RERUN

I saw them...they reminded me of you. I have to turn my head down. I can't help but smile with a pinch of pain from within. It was the way we were, the way we've been.

Now, we are but strangers.

Before...
We are enveloped with unexplainable happiness when we are together but it has to end. As it must. Indeed.

Because...

We are alike but different. We are perfect together but we are not meant for each other.

You know better of me... of 'us' and we know far more than the latent you are better off me...off 'us'.

It's sad, as you are the sweetest sin I could ever win but has to forsake.

I know it isn't known to you...
At times, I long for you... your company as it completes me.

Though it's over,  I can't help but to tickle the memories. You are one fine me.

I am afraid that one fine day we'll meet. A touch to those pinky and your good hair smell. Your hugs and kisses. A taste of relief, and a taste of passion,  will remind me of the sense of belongingness. K.

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Denoted

If you feel uninspired... Let me tell you..."You are lovely!" You are wonderful as you are made in the likeness of the Lord. That's who you are and who I am. You are loved by the one above, as He offered His life to save you. He came in to the world as flesh to endure things you experience as human as he become one like you... he even promised to be a friend whom you can talk to anytime, anywhere. You are blessed, we are blessed.

If you feel exhausted...think about the next lines. Remember, you were called to live a holy life but you always turn your back. Did He take away the sun that shines for you during the day? You are tired of doing things rightfully cos you can't see your rewards instantly, have you tried counting your everyday blessings?  You don't wanna listen and abide to things as you perceive it routinary/monotonous because everything is so laborious. But when you called in His name did He ever despise you?
Are you guilty of what you have done? Being lazy,  bored, and tired. Break those chains to free yourself from being a prisoner of your selfish hiding. We can be ashamed of the action but remember in His eyes the Lord take us for whoever we are and console our being to bring back the whole.

At the end of the day, you feel like there is nothing you accomplished. Mull over it after a month when you are almost done with the thing you are doing. Try to see that for the time you spent every single day...you gained a lot of values. You achieved and completed your goals.

If you feel like giving-up, because you seem to see no clear path and you have a broken heart. Think twice, you are still alive even though a part of you has died the One above can breathe in to that heart and you'll be healed. Take away your fears and wake your heart to wipe away your tears.

If you feel like you're inadequate...
Believe that you are more than enough to make a room happy. Smile and start a conversation.
Let your soul shine cos it is better than sunshine.

You are more than just flesh and bones, you are indeed beautiful. You can be someone that lights up another shaded soul by inspiring them to keep going.

Pray. Lord, here I am I am giving you all my pieces and ugliness in me...I am broken. Bit by bit I am putting myself into order through you as you heal me and make me whole...so that my life will be a deserving offer to You.

At times I sought after solitude and sidestepped into solitary scene. But in most of those times, I must say, I never let the pain of being alone or the frustration of a failed word/unfulfilled promise crack me in as I can be the type of person who doesn't find it painful to be stand firm and believe once again. I can find a way to make my day be enjoyed and have the most out of it.

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#goodmorningthoughtsfromAnne
#SavedFM

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EMPTY

I am amidst of listening to this all-soul-emotion-melting song "EMPTY" when I got the chance to stare at this painting set as an embedded art on one of my playlist.

Hirap talaga ng matagal ang upo sa pagbibiyahe, daming nasasabi. Heto na tuloy ko na ha. Ingay din kasi ni Daniel Padilla on the background apart from my earphone music. KathNiel fan ata si Manong. Nyways'...

I'd be dealing with just the painting and the song title this time.-not with its lyrics

Most of the time we feel "empty" when people would talk behind our backs, when we feel left out or being side-lined, when everything planned collapsed, when we were promised with things and stuffs but promises will be broken as they can be or when people turn their backs on us.

Being mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood by other people who doesn't really know you is really hurtful.--[thank you,Pink!] Honestly, we would feel real bad when people talk behind our backs and judge us for not who we really are, what we can do and how we're ought to be. As your character will be assasinated even without any ways of probing and taking a bit step to know you. Above all these still respect begets respect. We ought to value and show people the equal thing positively. It'll be better when you see that you can't beat evil as becoming more evil. You have to revert things. Don't talk too much about a person when you are out of words to say about them cos you can be wrong. As for the person who'll be in that situation, just gather your thoughts. Be composed about yourself and wade yourself out of the negativity.

When you get into a crowd who's minds get stocked into being insensitive and unmindful of others.--parang pareho lang meaning pero basta magkaiba yan. People being eaten by their power and position tend to become insensitive or more of becoming compassion less to the things they do, say, and see. Becoming unmindful of others because they were only thinking about themselves as the best. We tend to be left out and being side-lined. You won't receive any compliments and recognitions from this type as they don't mind people who help them carry out a task. Atop off all these, one must remain understanding and compassionate. Making another insensitive and unmindful person within you wouldn't resolve the issue. Care about them, kill them with kindness. Hahaha. And remember when a balloon overflows with nitrogen it explodes, right?! Let the air on their heads pop naturally out of their system. Or if they get too much, never be afraid to call for a good talk.

When you lined up things to push through something but it ends up crushing. That feeling when you stack bricks with just the final tile but it suddenly collapse. Whew! Heartbreak!!! There would really come a time that things would never go your way or how you planned it to be. The big Q now would be "What will you do?--Are you going to proceed? Or just settle on being stagnant?" On this situation,  it'll be best to take a breath and never lose faith on starting over again to make it right and if the option to proceed is available and it's for better then grab the chance. I remember talking to someone on the phone as he said:" Probably there would be a better post meant for you." Remember, everything in its time and His time.

Left hanging, unreciprocated, and/or torn apart these/this are/is what we feel when promises are broken.(--aaaay, kaylalim!) Those times when we were given a word or being promised with things and stuffs but people who uttered it didn't pay honour to their words. #Hugotlines would coin them as #paasa. People do not realise that simple things like these would make an impact to the person as they would pour out their efforts, time, and finances as they prepare for the waiting. You cannot leave out the fact that people would expect or wait (aasa) because they trust the one who throw the words. But some people won't mind of keeping promises. So here is the drill for this situation, if you promised a thing you have to find a way to serve to it and keep it. But if you will fail to fulfill a promise talk to the person ASAP explain it very well or honestly say you can't fulfill it. Yes it would hurt but guess what... you didn't prolong their agony. ;-)

Soledad really kills tormentingly. Being alone when you were experiencing a departure of sanity from your being is really something serious. Then people would turn their backs on us and we seem to have no one by our side. Well,  haven't been in the situation,  I hope never ever. When you can't find  someone to share your thoughts with, when the road seems to be a zero visibility ahead, or when you know nothing to do about getting lost into the situation you are in. Preferably, consult your family, friends, a priest,  a doctor,  a psychologist, grab a seat on a public place take time to think, find a sports that would fit you, get a ticket go to a place you've never been, have a close encounter to the nature... well, these were pretty much the things you need.

These enumerated and defined situations would always be part of everyone's life...(maliban nalang kung bato ka.)
Well, it'll all be part of our lives once in a while but epic thing would be when everything unfolds all at the same time.--but that could possibly happen.

Just be positive...

There would be a he or she that you can hang on and chill with... somehow,  felt the same way and can understand you better. They would be willing to shade and share with you their umbrella to defend you over talks of the mouth or non-sensible things that you ought not to mind at all.

BUT atop of this!

It would always take a courageous YOU to overcome all these and there will always be the ONE ABOVE that you can always count on.



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When a "Yes" Means a YES!

Loitering around the metro I heard this...

"I take one step away...but I find myself coming back to you...my one and only one and only you."

It was the song playing when I came in...

of course...during the recessional of the wedding I just chanced upon. Probably, the song is a pick of the couple.

Definitely one of my favourites as well. Thanks to my highschool classmate who introduced me to the song by playing along with a guitar.

I sat on the seat near the entrance to feel the ambience--for a while and to watch these busy people: enjoying, smiling, and posing. Wearing my natural keenness I heard a comment of people chatting around. "They really deserve each other." Which made me mull over this kind of celebration and I guess far beyond.

Walking down the isle. Settling. What view does people have about it and I for an instance. "Do you deserve each other?", well and good as a question. But let me start by asking 'Are you ready enough to take a new phase?'

People would say no one is ready enough no matter how much you prepare. Well, I do not bow to such thinking. It would always take a "ready" person to take a challenge. You couldn't get a good fight if you won't be handling a weapon in a battlefield or a gloves on in a ring fight. Preps matter a lot...it is more of knowing what you can do and keep you going in a long run. So that you won't just say, "I give up" instead, you'd utter "Let's keep it up."

We usually hear people say that "Hindi yan kanin na pagsinubo mo at napaso ka ay iluluwa mo" (bahala kayong magtranslate!--ako pa ba?) So true! It won't stop on the day of the wedding. When saying a "yes" it must really mean YES. Opening a wider door for acceptance, adaptation, reconciliation, and commitment.--which can all be strengthen by communication.

Wedding takes a lot of preparation amounting to time, effort, and finances. But there's far more than that...

Pre-tense. (Coining a term here) It must not be just a Romeo and Juliet love story but your own.
How you started builds the foundation of what you can have as one for the future. Some had it via long term engagement while others have it in a shorter span. Well it works differently to each and every couple but remember it has to be firmly plotted in a God-centered way.

As per the time you were boyfriend & girlfriend, honestly you cannot completely reveal who you really are as skin-and-bones nonetheless by the time you are already living in one roof. But this shouldn't hinder you from taking the baby-steps to learn about you and your betterhalf. It can either be learning by doing things with them, by acquiring what they value, or simply by knowing them little by little on your own way.

Try to get to know each other better. Start being a good friend to each other, care more and communicate always.

Time is a vital part of it. If you won't devout time you cannot communicate and share details of you with each other. Some people won't be buying you with their time. If they have ample time they would give it to you as long as you need it but they won't insist. At a certain point, person can always determine if the person loves them by how much time they are willing to invest for one another.

Also, you have to be stable so you won't stumble; hold your horse if not. Stable that whenever you stumble you would always find a way to bounce back to gain the equilibrium. Know that you have to be emotionally, physically, mentally, and financially equipped. Let's all be practical. Don't be a burden to your biological family and to the family you are about to build. Above all, to the society you are in. Magastos magpakasal, manganak, at magpamilya but everything will be worth it.

Giving it a time would let you know a person better. By the use of "time" you can be "ready" on taking the next level.

So lady, you can pick up that white dress then, gentleman you may do the honour to put that wedding ring on...

In-tense. I wanna smash out the fantasy castle built atop of a mountain or nearby seashore.
Let's live in reality. Nothing is made perfect in this world as we are living in an alluring world.

Accept the fact that one can be busy at things or by work engagements. Keep in mind that you have loved the person as a whole and not just by part. If they tend to be busy-as-a-bee just let them feel you can always be their oasis of life. Never demand a thing they can't give at the moment because wanting more can lead to exhaustion on both ends.-the provider and the receiver. Have a good timing. Prioritise talks and not fights. Remember that the person is worthy of a warm embrace or a sweet kiss than a cold hit or a sharp word.

Accept the challenge, keep your defenses, and maintain the balance for your goal. Have a small goal each day don't create a list of enormous expectations.

Be the one...who pays attention to details in a positive way. Find time see what is not there and fill it with love. Never let the two of you feel abandoned. As you are there for each other to build and not to obliterate. At times you have to bend but do not break cos that's too different things. Bend to endure the test of time and go beyond your limit and gain new learning about how you can win the challenges together. You are not meant to break and injure the one you promised to love.

Post-tense. Set a "Forever" of yours. Look for a happiness which can make your better half wear a wide smile on their face and carry it by heart.
Give some unexpected gifts, nice surprises, and little compliments.
-A kiss of good morning and a good night
-A compliment for a new hair do
-A good hug and rub on the back after a tiring day
-A whisper of thank you, I love you, take care, God bless.

Simple gestures of tender love and care:
-A simple message or text of sweet nothings like the old days.
-A run or walk at the park for just an hour.
-A play of dual sports of your choice
-A shared reading of a news journal or a book
-A drive somewhere away from the usual
-A morning toast and a share of political and life views
-A joke to make them smile. (Any knock,knock or banat)--you possibly can't be that old not to know this
Well, these were just suggestions. You can surely think of something better.

There you are thinking that you had everything, then figured out there goes much to give. Remember to take one step away but two steps closer to your one and only. Nothing should stop loving and commitment it must go on and on and on.



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Ping!

Ping! That would be the sound familiar to anyone. The sound that would wake you even you are sleepy. You are correct! --it is the sound of an alert once you receive a message either via messenger, chat, or email.

What's the reason of mentioning it? Oh well, don't you think that this sound actually moves you to respond immediately or be motivated to look or check the message? As a matter-of -factly it urges you to act onto something.

I have known someone who actually has this effect on me. I should say that I really admire this person. Largely,  affecting me postively. I want you to get familiar of him even just with his story.

He seems to be so vulnerable, young, and free. He takes life lightly even if life actually offers him the reverse... I mean it. He has no perfect  home--it is not about a grandeur house to live in but having no mom to look for the whole family---broken it can be.

No grandeur house would be fine. A shelther would be alright. So let's leave it that way. He doesn't have a mom because of a "choice". He once opened up the thing but I didn't bother him much of going deeper. This caused the family to be less connected...taking life individually but he's different. YES, he helped himself to become individually equipped but for the benefit of the family. He uses his craft to be less of a burden. He has been working for his family which eventually lead him to stop schooling. He said he has to stop but would surely pursue it soon. I know he'd find a way. He took the role of being a provider beneficial to keep his family intact.

Truly no broken home can't be rebuild. In little sacrificial way you can lead a completeness by accepting the role and keeping the goal.

Then, why shouldn't we (with complete family members) give strong bond with our own?

Talking about family, he also created family among his friends. He maintain to cherish and to respect people of any age. He may had been bullied and could have possibly been sidelined most of the time but he managed to hold his horse over talk-of-the-mouth of people around. I know he's really hurt as people would look at him negatively each and every day. Sometimes, even some of his friends does the bullying. Friends can be real cruel that's true so he would just smile and accept being called-out but I know inside he's crying.

Inevitably you have to stand courageously over matters at hand so you won't be dragged down by inferiority. Know that defeat is most of the time self-made. You can cry to release some of the tensions but fight with a joyful heart so they'd know that you love yourself more than they love their own.

Loving should start from us and show people nothing but love as love begets love.

At one point, he once confessed that he has this feeling for a girl. This girl gives her an intense feeling which he says "love". I must agree that he has a feelings for this girl, yes, he definitely like her. This girl is a close friend for years and years. He usually joins activities for her, attends something for her, finds time to see her, and totally thinks of her good.--name it. But this girl just made him feel he's not good enough. She never had a feeling for him. So settled being a good friend though he's in pain.

I have to zip my mouth about this. You can infer.

For all the adversities, he remained so pure.  Despite of the negativities, he remained calm and kept his faith with him. He never ceased to pray to God and share Godly verses whenever he has load.

Truly, this person is not just somebody to me. Cos I am learning through him. I really appreciate how he is taking life his way. He is someone who's worthy of grace.

What I learned from him is that life is like music it can give you different melodies...well surely, you'd soon find a way to sing your heart out to it and blend with it perfectly.

Let me share the bright side...

This man,  is trying to live life completely. He still works for the family through his talent,skills, and perseverance. He currently received a sponsorship to study from where he works.

The one being bullied before gained bunches of brothers and sisters who looks up to him although it is not known much to him. He has been designated task for multitude of people (kids on Sunday Catechism back then) that when he would pass by... they would call up to him with a "hi", all-teeth smile, and high-five. He's somewhat a celebrity.

And now, he is in love with a beautiful -kindhearted lady he met in the church. They had been exchanging sweet nothings continuously even if the girl is away because of studies. [But brother, be sure to take it slow okay? Just be inspired,  be motivated, enjoy the "ding"! Everything in His time.]

By the way, thanks for being an inspiration to write this piece.

Thanks for letting me know that when you dream,  dream wide awake. Life mustn't be fooled around but must be played right and enjoyed well.

Walang daluyong na dapat kang ikahon kung sisikapin mong tumindig at magtiwala sa nasa itaas.

I hope you have learned this "ping!" ;-)

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Differenciated

"KUNG TOTOO ANG DESTINY,
DI TOTOO ANG FREE WILL?"

...made me think!

Lexicon wise these are meanings of the two words.

Destiny : what happens in the future : the things that someone or something will experience in the future
: a power that is believed to control what happens in the future (Merriam)

Free will : the ability to choose how to act
: the ability to make choices that are not controlled by fate or God (Merriam)

Well, well, well! It has a point. But I wanted to deep dive the idea.

I wanted to differentiate the two as I do believe that these terms may have been contradicting but co-exist.

As these terms stands on their very time (situation) and act of the person over a matter.

Let us put it this way. When do you consider "destiny" happens? or the "free will" will be used?

The context. Destiny pertains to time wherein a situation will happen without any inference from the person alone. Whereforth, free will would be a decision of a person over a matter at hand or upon taking action to some situation.

Free will would take into the scene as a spice when destiny is taking its stage.

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Star(s)

I have chosen to love the night time. As it is the only time I can watch the moon and the stars. The night makes me immense myself with the animosity of the lovely sky that looks like a blanket that cuddles the moon as it plays with the twinkling stars. Like the moon, I pay good attention to the stars as I name one for myself... but one should be careful as stars are cunning they would shine bright for you once but when you blink they'd dissappear. As those stars in the sky were all named. I know somewhere I have my own...my star... who by night time is so eager to own me furthermore by daytime silently watches over me.

I've never been much into the stars' beauty from the outside I am more with how they are accompanying the moon not to go solo at night. How they shine to give light and guide to the travelers and knowledge and wisdom to the astronomers. On how they can give hope to someone on any undetermined spot on earth by just simply looking at them from afar or by wishing over one crashing as it will be caught by eyes.

Stars are lovely not just pretty. They are lovely. They always will be.

At one point,  I realised that I should stop chasing my star. I must be contented gazing at it and allow it to make its own way to amaze me: by greeting me with its infinite beauty from the inside. Anyway, it is called "my star" because it belongs to me. It belongs to me... so I I'll choose to wait to have its fall on me. At this time, I'd spend moment bettering myself so that I'd be ready to catch it with both hands. Embrace it with all my might and to unite with it as we condensed together to the infinity which only the two of us will share. 



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Lenten Reflection '16

Transcendence, a term I only encountered in the academe via psychology and philosophy. I thought no one would dare to write about it.

But it seems to be quite clear in this white published sheet.

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Story lines: To make the long story short.

#account1: He.She. Cross path. Eyes met. Started forever.

#account2: Her paper fell. He catched it. He asked for her name. They enjoyed hanging around.

#account3: She lost her glasses. He found glasses on a table. She went back to the table. It all started there.

#account4: He used the window as mirror .She rolled the window down. They laugh at each other.

#account5: She broke a string. He came to fix it. They made wonderful music.

#account6: She entered the door,  he took her hand. They danced all night.

#account7: Said sorry. FORGIVEN. Life began.

#account8: He said his good morning, she replied good morning. They created good noons.Then shared all goodnights.

#account9: He opened the door. She smiled at him. They started chatting.

#account10: He lied. She cried. They broke up

#account11: She made a confession. His heart was broken. They ended being alone.

#account12: He cares. She cares. They took good care of each other.

#account13: He said he's a she. She laugh. Turn around and cry.

#account14: At the  coffee shop. A name was called out. They both show up. They share the same name.

#account15: She started ranting. He remained calm. They the shared the night.

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Lab-dab,lab-dab!--listen to it...

Iyan ang himig at indak ng pusong may pag-asa!🎤💃💞

Kadalasan...

Kapag naisip ng isang sawing puso ang nakalipas niya, maaaring mahinawa niyang kabiguan lang at sakit ang hatid ng pagmamahal o pagsuyong natigil. Ngunit mapagtatanto mo ring kapag mayroon nang panibagong pagsuyo at ito'y nananatili, ang nagdaan ay tila aral na magtuturo sayo na may panahon ang lahat at di lang bugso ng damdamin ang nag-aalab... kungdi ang pagtingin ninyo sa hinaharap --di lamang sa malapot na pagtitig sa mata ng isa't isa.

Ang "pagmamahal" o "pagsuyo" sa isang tao (technically speaking,  not one of your relatives huh) ay isang sugal. Naniniwala akong bahagi nito ay pagtitika mo sa isang banda. Pagsugal, na hindi mahalaga kung sinuman ang magwawagi o magiging sawi dahil ang mahalaga alam mo kung kailan kakapit at kailan ka bibitiw. Sa kabilang banda, kung nagmamahal ka pipiliin mo ang bagay na magpapaligaya sa kanya kahit pa di ka bahagi non eh magpapaubaya ka. Lahat ng bagay ay nagaganap ng may mahusay na kadahilanan. Di nga lang natin mababanaagan agad-agad.

Lalo pa kung...

Ang taong minamahal mo ay di na tulad ang nararamdaman gaya ng sa iyo. Napanaw na ang maalab niyang pag-ibig. Suriin mo ang mga kaganapan sa inyo. Pag-usapan ninyo. Sumugal ka kung maaari pang balikan ang lahat para maalala nyang nangako kayong para sa isa't isa o hahayaan mo siyang hanapin ang sarili niya sa malawak na mundo (aaay,bahala siyang maligaw pineste. Haha) ang mahalaga nagkaroon kayo ng pagkakataong maunawaan ang kasalukuyang kalagayan ng inyong relasyon. [pakiusap naman kung mag-asawa na kayo pag-usapan niyong masusi at isaalang-alang ang maraming bagay, wag kayong ano dyan!]

Gayunpaman,

Sa pusong nabigo na ng minsan at nang minsan pa (wag nang pangangatluhan pa... hanggang 2nd Chance lang yung movie wag kayong ano!) wag matatakot sumubok magmahal muli. Dahil hindi mo malalaman, mararanasan, at mararamdaman kung di mo susubukan. Hindi mo maipadarama yung pagmamahal mo sa isang tao kung di ka susubok. Bahagi ng umibig ang masaktan kasi tao ka, di ka naman bato... wag lang paulit-ulit dahil walang gamot sa tanga ha. Hayaan mo na ang nakalipas, limutin mo na at matuto ka.

Sa kabilang banda...

Ang pag-ibig, pagmamahal, at pagsuyo ay di naman talaga nakakasakit. (Read on Corinthians ha, it has to be God centered...nosebleed na ko managalog pero kaya pa tiwala lang) kahit pa minsan bahagi lang nito ang pagtatasa o pagsukat sa tibay ninyo.-- na ang layunin ay lumago at hindi ang sirain kayo.

Kasi naman...

Ang pagmamahal di pinagpipilitan (wag pasukin ang komplikado, wag kang manggulo) tumiming ka naman uy! Dalwa lang!-- yung papangatlo na magba-bind si God yun. Wag kang feeler ha! antay ka ng sayo. Dahil ang pag-ibig di hinahanap kusang dumarating yan. Wag kang mag-alala yung laan para sa iyo hahawakan ng mabuti yung kamay mo nang di ka na malayo sa kanya. Yung isasanggalang niya yung sarili para di ka na masaktan pa. Kaya kalma lang ha. Wag nang bagabag.

Ang saganang akin,

Ang pag-ibig parang pagbabasa lang ng libro yan. Kung balik ka nalang ng balik sa isang pahina eh di mo mababasa yung sunod na Chapter na mas maganda pa pala... may anticipation naman kasi... nanamnamin mo yung binabasa mo hindi yung dinadaanan lang ng mata mo. Basta sarap magbasa lalong higit pagdamang-dama (pag-ibig pa rin ba topic ko o pagbabasa na?Haha)

Baka naman...

Minsan masarap ding magmahal ng 'writer'...Sabi nga sa isang nabasa ko, "When you love a person that writes no need for you to marry a Greek god or goddess cos through their writing you can be immortal! " (maisingit lang)

Napagtanto ko ding...

Ang kakayahan nating magmahal ay di naman kayang tibagin ng isang kabiguan o di kaya ay maipagwawagi ng isang haplos... yes it can start with such pero... tatandaan nating panghabambuhay ang pag-ibig patuloy tayo sa pagsuyo. Dito ay matuto tayo, may malalaman, at mag-uusbong. Sa buhay,  bahagi nito ang pagkawala ng ilan at pagdating ng panibago.

Alam ko to (learned by experience)

Pag-iniwan ka, wag kang magmumukmok. Iiyak mo kung kailangan... hahanap ka din ng kausap ha delikado eh. But "time heals all wounds" totoo! Ang buhay ay pasulong di yan paurong. Masakit, siyang tunay, pero kaya naman. Mabuti nga at nagmahal ka... yung sa totoo lang... di ka nagkulang. Kunsensya na niya. Takte! Kung nadapa ka aba'y bangon! Wag kang unfair sa sarili. Love yourself and you'll again be set to love others. Oo, mag-iiwan ng marka yung dati. Pero pakiawa mo na wag mong kurutin ng kurutin yung sugat at baka maging malaking peklat yan ha. Ang pagmamahal ay dapat isang magandang pakiramdam na ibabahagi mo araw-araw hindi alaalang itinatago sa kung saanman.

O basta ha.

Pagmagmahal ka wag kang tipid. Lalo na kung dun sa tamang tao. Kailan mo malalamang tama? -- yung walang sabit, di ka panggulo,  iniisip ang kapakanan mo,  yung nagsasabi ng totoo at hindi lang paggwapo, yung di ka idadaan sa kwento pero may oras na makipag-usap sayo, yung hindi baon niya yung pandate sayo o galing pa sa kupit sa wallet ng nanay niya, hindi yung maganda/gwapo ka lang sa paningin niya dahil may nahihita sayo at di naman yung nasa-saloob mo.. (balak ka pang gawing trophy).  Aral muna kung estudyante ka,  pamilya muna bago iba. You'd know a better person if you see how they value their family... nakakasiguradong gamot ay bago... joke lang! Malamang alamang pahahalagahan din niya yung pamilyang bubuuin kasama ka. You'd know that the person would be worthy to build with and not just simply chill with. Di ka tambayan... tao ka... minamahal at pinapahalagahan.

Aaaay...hala ...babu muna! Antok na ulit si Ako.



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Outside:Looking in.

Wake up: let go and move forward!

When it's time to break it... let it be in a proper manner. It could not be "even" as the song claims but the very least you didn't add up to the pain which both of you have, may have, or will be having.

Too much grip on some thing could never be right or fair enough. It can cause bruises on the one who holds it tight and scars/pains on the other side.

A relationship would always be "us"... if now at this time you are solely thinking about "I" well,  better examine the affair the you are in  right the very moment. Talk about it.

Most people would always cling on to things they no longer associate themselves anymore. This would definitely keep them hanging. The caught-in-the-middle feeling where you don't know if you'd proceed or forever be stocked.

In a relationship, this would be a bad indication. For an instance you'd say, "it's not about him/her,  it's all because of me. Oooops, can you still remember how you'd become partners? Always consider that one is a part of the other in an affair. You can't surely be with together if one of you won't agree with the commitment of being part of each other.

This clearly calls out for people on the brink of deliverance deciding upon leaving someone without closure.

And remember, that once you decided over things never mull over it any more. Thinking about what you have already thought of would surely be a double jeopardy. It's a crime. It can consume you so beware and just be it. No holding back beacuse the more you do, the more you hurt yourself and the "once" special person in your life. Which on the other hand, if you turns out to decide to choose them they could be your lifetime.

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